I'm not having a good time here... there's a constant rotation through the more negative emotions and feeling that seem to drive me towards a collision course with depression. Anxiety and uncertainty are taking their toll. The sad thing is that there is no reason for most of it.
Well, to be fair, the milestone birthday that just passed has made me re-evaluate my preparedness for retirement, and it ain't good. So, is that fuelling the slide towards the bottom? Between that harsh reality and the challenges at work I've finding it very difficult to maintain the sense of optimism I try to approach most things with. Unfortunately I find huge inadequacies in what I'm doing, and capable of doing.
Wow!
This is post stroke stress. This isn't me. I do hope it isn't the me I'm becoming because of the stroke. That wouldn't be fair. This certainly has nothing to do with the cancer.
The other concern is that this may be a physical thing, like an imbalance in blood sugars.
there's a longer post on this topic coming. In the meantime, have a look at the stroke site.
Heart and Stroke Canada
